*artwork-via www.houzz.com
| he was the lamb wishing to be the shark, years of struggling, and he did get there, but i never came, trying to get rid of myself. given to the hands of curiosity with nothing to remember but this empty street and deserted man, it was easy. playing in the same team with my own nature, we spent meaningless hours sprinkled with random talking about books. suddenly, it occurred that he was so near, and for almost a year i felt these warm words followed by cold drops of closeness. twice i was a coward: being colorblind, i waited for so long to share, but he was the one who took my colors, giving none back. already colorless, i was fleeing and he let me taste this black and white soup, it tasted like happiness. into the wilderness, i got lost, and fell down ,slithered, for he was the snake. and he was the snail. and again i was sinking into the goo i wished to produce, even though on that moment he was sticky and sweet and melting like sugar. soon on a night of exhilaration i was the one to hold his hand on a way home, and we laughed. then he was beautiful, tearing my skirt he wore, so frozen and distant, i felt. so that i needed to escape into engineered world of scheduling and brushing the teeth after every meal, it couldn’t last. on the roof top we drank sour wine and spilled out well known secrets, he knew how to surprise my feet and tickle my heart. i wanted my heart un-ticklish, but it refused to obey, because he was so upright, and so small, and so much larger than i could ever imagine or bare, so i let go. just to see that he was a red head pirate, fighting his own demons, he could not fight those mine. on that moment he became roman, forever turning jerusalem into sanctuary. i got caught up and it all turned into a big mash with a guitar music dressing. i needed to breath, so now he was showing me his paintings and i was breath(ing)less again. that’s why he was young and his hair was big, he played saxophone during nights and i was smiling. wearing beautiful dress, and smelling like me and like everyone, i was talking to him in the dark, and my lips were touching his skin. i was hiding in holy jerusalem, when he came again, and took me into his pre-planned world of tomorrow, we never celebrated the moment. so i ran away, and then he was worshiping Buddha and climbed mountains, while i was sad. so he came straight from his own reality holding that mirror. he wanted to pull me in, i preferred to fade away. into what used to be sacred jerusalem, but only closer to the polluted sea. all of a sudden, i was near holy heights again: he was another lamb, hiding in god’s lion skin, digging out secrets buried in earth, so delicate and warm, he was, i thought i can breath for real, but i was suffocating until i managed to leave. for long nights i waited for the moment when i could go back dancing on my own, and barefoot bear put me under the spotlight and into the game. satan was lurking just around the corner, making illusive southern desert look like luxurious oasis, it hurt deliciously. so i chose to try out north, the heat was strikingly immense, but little black eyed demon was as cold as marble. |
